i don’t know what to put here

Okay so i said that i was going to (most probably) write a lot during the Christmas break… I obviously didn’t.

Not many people at all follow this blog but i feel bad…

I had a really good Christmas, i honestly spent most of it out with friends and sometimes family and that’s honestly the truth, i was barely in the house! When i was inside and near the wonderful WiFi i was mostly on tumblr or watching youtube videos.

Christmas/New Years went too quickly compared with last year… reflecting back there is a lot of difference in how i am now as apposed to how i was back then. I feel more aware of myself now as in what i like and i feel as though i have matured quite a bit, there is one similarity though that i still don’t know what to do over, but that’s another story… funny how things sometimes come back around, seemingly for the better.

2012 went fast too, it has been my best and worst year so far. A lot has happened this year and i’m really happy that most of it has, good parties, an amazing summer, becoming closer to people i’ve known since year 7 and becoming more of who i want to be.

On the downside… there has been a few things that have affected me from around spring last year… or i guess one thing in particular. It’s been tough and it’s not always easy to control, it’s made me become sad when i truly want to be happy and i can’t see why i shouldn’t have been – everything was going amazingly, except for that of course.

As things do, it’s grown and weakened in strength, which is hard and i don’t know how to talk about it, it’s much easier to do in riddles (as i am now) or through writing.

I don’t let it stop me, i still go to most parties and find the strength to go out with my friends and go to school, it takes a lot and it tires me out but i need to fight back – it’s my life, i’m 16 this year and it’s not going to defeat me and take opportunities away from me.

It’s a struggle but it’s worth fighting

(As cheesy as that may sound)

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Mock exams and things…

I feel so bad that I haven’t posted and it hasn’t even been ridiculously long.
I felt like making this post so I was reminding myself as much as anyone who might read this blog that I’m not slowing forgetting about it… I have only had it since September. It seems like yesterday though- 2012 and the first half of year 11 has gone way too quick.
Anyway, I’ve got mock exams all next week, well, this week really. I should probably say my time is taken with revision and partly it is yes but I haven’t done much, I feel like I’m prepared… I will have to do some though.
Since I’ve got a Saturday job in which I work from 9am – 5:30pm I’ve been going out on Fridays a lot more and then Saturdays when I’ve finished work so the only free day I have to blog during the weekend is sunday. I will try to devote some of my time on Sundays to my blog, it’s not that I don’t Want to its just I feel inspired but I’m tired and I feel like it would be wasted.
Oh well, it’s Christmas break starting a week in thursday and I’m sure I’ll blog a lot then!
Byeeeeee

Hmm…

I don’t know i feel about this new theme, it is okay i guess, since it’s free. Anyway, i am hoping to get a real blog post on here about fashion within this week. I have school and everything but i hope that shouldn’t interfer too much, i do seem to be lacking on homework already though, which is not a good sign. I can’t wait until next year when i will be starting Sixth Form, it seems that you are allowed more freedom although, there is a lot more work involved. I can’t wait to be able to study only the subjects i want to study instead of maths and sciences: i know two things for sure, i am definitely taking Music and English.

Bonjour.

My name’s Jayne, I’m fifteen and I live in England.
Music is a big part of my life and it’s something I’ve always wanted to do, it’s easy to say but it’s true: I don’t know how I’d live without singing or music. I like to express myself through song writing, it would be a dream if someday I get the chance to put them on an album and perform my own songs to crowds of people on a stage…
I don’t really know how to describe my music taste… it has changed recently, as I’m getting older I assume but, here are a few artists/bands that I love: Two Door Cinema Club, The Vaccines, Lana Del Rey, Florence And The Machine, The Drums, Ed Sheeran, Taylor Swift, Coldplay, Marina And The Diamond and Bombay Bicycle Club… just to name a few although that may seem like a lot.
Lastly, I love Fashion, that may seem so cliche but I really do. It’s always been something I’ve been interested in through the years but recently I’ve been interested in more depth, it’s hard to explain. I’ve become more aware of my style and what I like to wear, In the meantime becoming completely obsessed with topshop and fashion magazines. I find fashion so interesting, all the different styles and shops and designers… I am in love.
As you may have picked up on if you were persistent enough to read this big chunk of information about myself… I am a very creative person and in the future, I cannot see myself having a job that doesn’t involve creativity, I just wouldn’t be able to do it.